Frustrated.

I am having a frustrated night.

I guess that I am just feeling upset. Not sure why. I almost feel angry. I hate it when I get like this. I am just shaking.

Whenver I feel like this, I always miss certain people in my life that have hurt me. This is a bad cycle. I almost miss Jake right now... so dumb. Because I hate him so much. I guess I just miss the good times. I hate that I always remember the good times when I am feeling upset. The bad things that happened just fade. It is so annoying. Ugh. I am done talking about this. It is bad for my mental health.

On a completely different note...

I dislocated my shoulder. I guess that it happened Friday night. It started to hurt. I thought that I just pulled a muscle. But the next day it started to hurt even more. But then that night it started hurting even more. So I asked my friend at work to take a look at it. She touched my shoulder and saw that it was dislocated. The bone was portruding out of my back. It hurt sooooo soooo sooo bad! I got sick after it got pushed back into place. And then got sent home from work early and that never ever happens. I went home and took pain killers and then put a heating pad on it. That made it feel a lot better. Today I am doing much better. It is still sore, but nothing like it was.


So on Tuesday I have to dress up in suspenders and a bow tie for work. We lost a contest and I was chosen to be one of the managers to do it. Not sure if it is a good or a bad thing. The entire floor staff voted for me. Hmm... Then on Saturday I am going to be working an actual register. That should be interesting.

Well I am thinking that I should get some sleep. I need to sleep this feeling that I am having out. I hope it will make me feel better.