People don't realize this but loneliness is underrated

I feel completely bummed out.

I always do this to myself. I get really excited about something, and of course have high expectations. And then I get let down. I really do it to myself. And I try not to, but it always ends up happening.

I am really looking for a relationship. Of course, I love the single life. But I am kinda over it. I like having someone there for me like that. Someone to invite out with my friends. So I am not always the extra person. Someone I can call if I am feeling down to make me smile. I just miss being in a relationship.

I am getting older. I know, I know. I am still extremely young. But, I want to date someone for a while, have a decent engagement, and then be married for a while before I have kids. And I don't want to be an older parent. Like before I am 30!

Ah I am thinking about this way too much. I think that it is just hard when all of my close friends are in serious relationships or married or engaged. It is all around me all the time. It is hard to escape it.

I really should get to sleep. I am seriously bummed out about this right now. And I shouldnt rant. Especially about something like that. It will happen when it happens. And probably when i am least expecting it. I believe in fate. In chance. In coincidence.