The semester end

This semester is FINALLY coming to an end! This upcoming week is the last week of school. Then just 2 days, 2 finals, 2 papers, a power point, and a presentation til over a month break! I am needing this break! Over the last two weeks, I worked 96 hours and had full time school. I haven't slept much at all!

I feel like so much has happened recently, but really nothing at all.

Thanksgiving this year was awesome. I went over the the Brown's house. It always makes me feel like 'home' when I go there. It is a nice feeling. It brought me back to a couple of years ago. Back to a place I haven't been in a long time. Security. Comfort. They have been so nice to me and my family. It makes me feel really good that people care that much and have such big hearts. I also got to spend time with one of my favorite people of all time... and we know how good that makes me feel... oh man. Old memories. Not sure how I feel about all of that. I just know it feels right.

Today I went to my friend Jenna's wedding. It was beautiful. I have known her since the 4th grade! It is crazy that everyone is getting married! It makes me feel so old! Tonight was like a high school reunion. Seriously. So many people that I haven't seen since graduation.. been almost 5 years! wow! But being at weddings is such a happy feeling. But also bittersweet. It makes me wish I had someone and was at that stage in my life. But, everyone is different. And I will get there when the time is right! But it does make me soo happy for my friends!

My birthday is in a few weeks. 23. Is that posssible? That I am actually that old??! I feel like I keep getting older, but still haven't done anything significant in my life yet. Like I am waiting for it to start. I have been coasting along for the past few years... nothing really changing. I think that once I finish school things will be better. Or at least that is what I am hoping!

On a different note, I have been cooking recently! At least a few things! It makes me excited to have something turn out yummy. I just wish that I had more time to do it! I am excited for the holidays to cook more! I want to try out a bunch of reciepes! Ah I just need to watch calories! I have been really bad with my diet this last month. Just no motivation to go to the gym and so much good food to eat! Holidays are such a bad time for diets! I just can't let myself completely go. Blah. I wish that was easier!

Well, it is getting late. And I need to get some sleep! But it does feel amazing to just lay here in bed and be lazy for once! Especially after being on my feet so much, and about 8 hours in huge heels today! haha

xoxo

Deja Vu

Wow, this is deja-vu! Here I am, sitting in the Coor Computer commons... AGAIN. This is honestly all that I do on Tuesday and Thursday's. Ridiculous I say! I hate having these huge breaks in between classes. I really could work on writing an essay that is due later... but then what will there be to do later this afternoon?!

So I learned a lesson this weekend. It is called, do not drink and have your cell phone! I made numerous drunk calls and texts Saturday night while out for Halloween. Don't get me wrong, awesome night! But I probably said a few things that I shouldn't have! Including calling the guy that I am into at the moment and making an ass out of myself. Hopefully that didn't completely ruin it...

So I am meeting with an advisor later this afternoon to finalize my classes for next semester. I broke it down and will hopefully only have class on Tuesday and Thursday. That would be amazing for sooo many different reasons! Saving money in gas, being able to open at work so I am not there super late with class the next morning, and more free time. I will be taking all education classes this next semester which will also be nice. I am sooo ready to be done!

I miss dancing. I feel like I haven't been doing it as much as I was. I am not enjoying class anymore. I don't have a partner in the class so I end up having to sit out for a lot of it which just ends up being a waste of my time. I want to go out and do performances and competitions. I miss that aspect. And am seriously looking forward to the costumes my dad is buying me for Christmas! I will finally have professional ballroom outfits! yay! I already picked out the ones that I want.

I just need to get back on my diet track. The last month has been BAD for me. I have had little motivation. And honestly, I think that a lot of it has to do with the fact that I am utterly exhausted all of the time. I should be going to the gym, but in the little free time that I have, I want to sleep. I barely get any of it and need it for my sanity. This semester is really catching up with me. I think that I have just been so used to being on the go all the time that it seems normal, but it really isn't. Having a high demand full time job, plus trying to do well in full time school is exhausting in itself. Add in dancing, friends, dating, and everyone's wedding this semester and you can see the recipe for my loss of sanity. I NEED winter break to get here.

Winter break is going to be amazing. New Moon comes out... yes, I am one of those people. Then I get to go to my work Christmas party...being waiting to go since I started! haha. I also get a big bonus for that, plus a Christmas bonus, plus my tuition re-embursement! yay! Then I have my birthday... doubt I will be doing anything exciting.. I mean, what is exciting about 23 anyway... wow I am OLD. And then Christmas.. :) I hope Michael is able to come out. I miss him.

Oh goodness... Well I should get off to my advising appointment so I can get all of this cleared up.