Anxiety

Not knowing what the future holds for me makes me feel very anxious. Not knowing what the results of my decisions will lead to makes me very anxious. Not knowing how I will feel makes me feel very anxious. Not knowing what I should beleive in or what really is true makes me very anxious.

Obviously I am feeling very anxious.

I know that part of living is not knowing what will happen next. That is part of the excitement. Life would be boring if you already knew what was going to happen to you. I just wish you could pick a couple things and at least know if it will be a good or bad thing. Or what you should do about something you are going back and forth on. Big life changing decisions you should at least get a little help on. That would make life so much easier! At least for me and how I am feeling right now about life.

It is summer now. Summer brings many new adventues. I actually have some time off and it feels amazing! Sleep is something that I have found myself reaquainted with, and I don't want to lose that again! I always am feeling more refreshed and better about the day. I have more energy to keep going. But of course, this will only last a couple months until school starts again. I am going to enjoy it while I can!

Netflix: my newest obsession. This is fantastic. I can't believe that I have never gotten it before! Such a cheap and great opportunity to see movies. If you do not have this, I would highly recommend it! I just finished watching Time Travelers Wife (loveee it), and will be getting 17 Again tomorrow. Seriously.. love Zach Efron (don't judge! haha).

Ah I seriously have anxiety butterflies in my stomach that keep giving me goosebumps. Trying to keep my mind off of it...

I really need to clean up my apartment. I have been putting it off for a couple days because I have been busy with work, but I have no excuse! It really isn't bad. But I would rather not have to deal with roaches again and will be taking every precaution against it!

I got a couple new work out videos today! Ballroom cardio! It should be a great way to get in shape and to work on my dance moves! I can't wait to start it!

Well it is about that time that I end this extremely random post and do something productive before I head to bed!