Happy Mothers Day

Welll today is Mother's Day. The last one that I actually celebrated, I went to church with my mom for a Mother Daughter luncheon. Then my mom, brothers, and I went to Carabbas for dinner. The funniest thing happened.. my mom went to the bathroom and came back with her skirt tucked in her panties! An older man who was sitting behind us was the one that noticed first and helped her out! She was so embarassed but we all couldnt stop laughing! lol. I got my mom a picture frame with a few pictures of me and her that she took when she was pregnant with my brother Mark and I was 2 years old. She was taking a photography class and they were in black and white. They pictures were beautiful. When she opened it she cried.

Here are a few poems that my mom has in her journal that she kept when she was my age:

Open Eyes
I opened my eyes this morning and saw the future for a change.
Been looking behind far too long.
It was about time I learned that the past can't be changed.
The future is what really counts.
If, you know what you want.

Love is Giving
How many times have you been asked or been asked to define love;
can you; thinkl what does it mean.
Your love for your children is one, another for their mom.
Good music may be one too, as you, your love as well.
Baseball, hockey, ice cream, peanut butter.
Can you tell the difference.
The world itself is too often used, most times the true meaning violently abused.
If I say I love you,
I want it to mean more than being amused,
by a funny movie or play,
and, I want it to mean the same as yesterday.
If tomorrow comes another day,
but, the meaning in I love you the same as today.
It could be just living, but its not owning it could be forgiving,
not being selfish.
But in the end,
to me at least,
it means;
giving.

Lonely Days
There are days when I've been alone but I wasn't lonely.
There is a difference you see.
Being alone is because that's what you want.
Being lonely is being alone and not wanting to be.
Like me,
I'm lonely.
I know I don't have to be
I'm sure that if I looked I'd find someone willing to share these empty hours.
But I won't,
It wouldn't be fair.
I've given you all that I have to give,
There's nothing left over to share with someone else but conversation,
and most times that's just not enough.
I'm still lonley but ecause of you I'm no longer alone.

The Memories We Keep
I've been alone so long now that I've forgotten there could be someone who cared.
Enough to hope that I'd call.
Man is that way, he must be told, why.
I guess because he's afraid that what he wants to be true isn't and he doesn't want to find out.
You know it's much safer sometimes to live with hopes and past memories rather than see the truth about tomorrow, because you never learn how not to be hurt, and the pain, sometimes is too high a price.
To pay when you are not sure.
I guess that's why we try to borrow more time.
We try to share with memories the happiness that was there.
Once upon a time.

No Room for Sorrow
My heart is screaming please don't go away,
but,
my heart is also keeping words within.
I know that if you want to leave you will,
and if you want to stay another day I won't have to ask and neither will you.
So forget about yesterday, don't wonder about tomorrow, love and live today,
it's all the life we've got,
let's not spoil it with sorry.

I love you mom. Happy Mother's Day.