Motivation

Every morning I check my horiscope on my phone. It is an application that I downloaded. It is extemely creepy how accurate it really is. Like gives you the chills accurate. Well last week, it said that I need to start taking better care of myself. And I think it is time that I start doing that.

I have started diets and exercising before and then lose my motivation and stop. I need to just make a life change. I have been really bad recently with that. Just been busy with work and it has been easier to eat out. I can't do that anymore. I don't want to be this way anymore. I am unhappy. This is not me. I walked into the restroom at work the other day and saw a huge lady who had a hard time even walking on her own. Obviously I am no where near that. But it still made me feel sick to my stomach. I would never ever want to be at a place like that in my life.

I feel like my weight holds me back in a lot of things that I want to do in life. It is sad that the world focuses so much on outter beauty but it is true. Not only do I want to be pretty on the outside, but I also don't want to have any health issues along the way. That scares me.

I am not really doing a "set" diet. Like the cookie diet that I did before. I want to make a life change. Just so that I am healthy. Obviously I will be going more hard core at the beginning to have a lot of weight loss. I will also be going to the gym a lot more. I pay a lot of money to be a member of a gym, so I need to use it!

Well that is it for now. I need to sleep because I have to work again tomorrowmorning... over these last two weeks I have worked over 120 hours.. I need a break for my sanity. Please.