New Beginning

I am free from the ghetto!!! I cannot begin to describe the relief that I am feeling now! I feel safe when I am here, I feel clean, I feel good.

I am basically an expert mover by now. It gets easier every time. Still a pain, but at least I know how to organize things now. I signed a year lease, so thankfully I will be here for at least that long. I am hoping that I can stay here a while, I really really like it so far.

It is 790 square feet. Full size washer and dryer. Big kitchen with new appliances. Painted accent walls. Above the model (no one below me!), assigned parking, clean!

I decorated today. It looks soo much better now! I am glad that it is looking more "homey" now. I am happy to come home. There is still some that I have to do, but at least most of it is done and unpacked. It has been a long long weekend doing everything. I got the weekend off of work, and I need another vacation after this!

Along with my new apartment beginning, is a new healthy beginning for me. I am now living down the street from my gym. It will be so much easier to go now which is so nice. I also have a huge, clean kitchen that I have already started to use. I am not going to eat out nearly as often. Only on special occasions. I have a motivation to do this. I am going to be competing in dance this semester and want to look good in my dresses. I also want to look good for myself.

School starts Tuesday. I have mixed emotions about it. I am dreading it to start because it is going to be intense, a lot of work, and a loss of my little free time. I am excited because I am now THAT much closer to graduation and I actually like what I am learning about now. I also have a nice schedule this semester so I won't be as overwhelmed as last semester. Super glad about that!

Well pictures will be coming soon of everything! It has been an exhausting day, time to pass out!

A Little Bit Stronger

A Little Bit Stronger

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain

But I brushed my teeth anyway

I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face

I got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt

So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you

I listened to it for minute but I changed it

I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels

Letting you drag my heart around

And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay

Even on my weakest days

I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around

And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried

I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer

I'm busy getting stronger

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels

Letting you drag my heart around

And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay

Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Getting along without you, baby

I'm better off without you, baby

How does it feel without me, baby?

I'm getting stronger without you, baby

And I'm done hoping we could work it out

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels

Letting you drag my heart around

And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay

Even on my weakest days

I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

Just a little bit stronger

A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger

I love finding songs that completely fit everything on how I am feeling. Sadly, this is how I am feeling right now. Wish it wasn't. Wish you could change. But I need to come to terms with the fact that you aren't. I need to flip through those songs that remind me of you, not listen to them and feel sad. My heart will never be the same after you.

2010 has come and gone

Another year here, another year gone. Might I say, before I start this post, that this is not the beginning of a new decade; that started in 2010. Come on people! I swear I have seen about a dozen posts welcoming the new decade.. even one welcoming the new century! What?! And people think the education system here is mighty fine and needs no changes... oh my goodness.

Anyways...

It is about 3 hours into this new year. I did not welcome it in the way that I thought I would, but here is not to complain about things so pety. I thought that I would take this opportunity to think about what this last year has brought me, what I have learned, what I will remember, and things I wish to forget. What better way to remember the year than by looking back through old status updates? Oh, I knew documenting my every move would come in handy one day!

I moved into an apartment all by myself. This was something that I had always said I would never do. I was terrified to live alone. I did not think I could handle it and would be so scared. It turned into the best thing ever. I love living alone! I did not pick a very good place to live... that would be one of those lessons! Roaches, scary neighbors, being followed, people in dumpsters, no washer or dryer, oven doesn't work, hot water lasts 5min... that just lists some of the bad things that were here. Thankfully, in 2 weeks I will be leaving all of the roaches behind and starting a new life! I cannot wait to move! My new place is super nice for cheap! All new appliances, and even a washer and dryer! I am moving on up, and even to the east side, to a deluxe apartment...! bahaha... anyways...

I got in my first car accident. June 11. On Country Club and Southern. That was the night I also got my ass threatened to be beat up! Scary! I am now a much more cautious driver. It was the scariest thing ever. I posted all of the details about it on a previous post.

I got accepted into the Professional Teacher Program at ASU! I also made it through the Block 1, also known as the most rigiourous block in the entire program intended to weed out a lot of people. I ended the semester with a 3.6 GPA. Not too bad for having a full time job on top of that full time school with an internship! I am now THAT much closer to finishing and getting my degree! A year and 5 months left... not like I am counting or anything. This year confirmed for me that I want to be a teacher. I have had so many good experiences, and am looking foward to finishing the program.

2010 was not kind to my love life. There were no perspectives. Yeah, I dated here and there, but nothing serious. This year mostly lead me in a path back to my past. That is never a good idea. Time to look forward, not backward. I may hope that one person who was in my past, who honestly never left, will be in my future. But only time and maturity can tell. I will tell you he is not off to a good start this year though. He will need to make it up to me!

This year has had high ups and low downs. Those were the moments that stuck out to me.

 Some movies that I loved this year: Eclipse, Tangled, Flipped, Easy A, The Last Song, Step Up 3, Harry Potter, Inception, Burlesque, Jackass, Kick Ass, Ramona and Beezus. I am sure that I am missing quite a few, but that is what happens when you see a lot of movies! Hopefully next year brings some amazing movies!

It is officially time for bed. I turned the heat on in my apartment for the first time! I have been so strong.. but 40 degrees INSIDE was pushing it. It is finally warming up in here! Time to snuggle under my covers. Too bad a certain someone isn't snuggling with me tonight.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,

And never brought to mind?

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,

And auld lang syne!

For auld lang syne, my dear,

For auld lang syne.

We'll take a cup o' kindness yet,

For auld lang syne.